Which way?

Which way should I go? What direction do I go in? I am always unsure! That's life though, you never really know which path to take and will it take you to the right place? You have to learn and discover who you are first in order to go in the right direction or make the best decisions to ensure a better life for yourself. So much confusion may lay in your path but you must ignore it and get past it to get to the place you think will be best for you. It may be a hard task with a lot of obstacles in the way while getting there but if you really want it you will never give up and try whatever you can to reach the place you need to be.

Insomnia!

   So much on my mind. School, kids, and health are my main concern! When something is on my mind heavily....I won't sleep. No matter how much I try to block them out or transmute, these little thoughts stay with me throughout the night. Negative feelings, pessimism, worry, fear, strange feelings.....then positive, funny, happy....back to negative again! The cycle continues...ughhh. I know many go through this but I don't want to be apart of that "many" that deal with this. Sitting in darkness, a few stars shine in the L.a. sky outside my window, baby peacefully sleeps in his crib, while I wonder what will tomorrow hold? Will my children be OK? Am I going crazy? What will happen to me with all this negativity in my mind? How do I stop it from affecting me day to day or night to night? That's when it hits me the most. Who knows my problems? My shame? My feelings of helplessness or vulnerability? How will they judge me or will they not care? Do I find a solution on my own or get professional help? Why am I concerned what others think? I don't! Then I do. Will I ever change? Can I? May I...when!

  God send your spirit to erase these negative thoughts that deprive me of sleep and  peace of mind. Release me from this mental prison of "worrisome" thoughts and doubt.  Feelings of hurt and betrayal hang over me. Show me which way to turn or what to pray or read to get me through...well out of this way of thinking that keeps me from sleep. All I want and need is peace.

  - Jamie's mind

~Jewel's Vid~

Teething 101 with Justin

Since I have not posted in awhile....

Update....

Baby Justin was born April 4, 2011 @ 11:27am (We both have the same rising sign)
8lbs 5oz :-)













*~So cute~*

Jewel was a little nervous about him when she first saw him at the hospital but she has warmed up to him so much, she acts like she is mom lol.
They play together so nicely.

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Justin is 4 months now and man, he is a piece of work!
He loves trying to stand up on his feet and crying loud!
Even though he is only 4 months he acts like he is 8 months lol

We are trying to get him to practice crawling but he wants you to pick him up all the time so he can "pretend stand", that's what I call it lol. He loves for you to hold him up by his little hands or his back and act like he can stand...but you just see him wobble side to side because his little legs are not ready for that yet! He must think in that little 4 month old brain of his that his legs are ready (Only for crawling now baby J!).



His sis loves to help him with trying to stand and he is so happy when she does.

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Jewel has learned how to ride her bike thanks to a dedicated grandma and Jewel's determination to learn. She is a quick learner!

"GO JEWEL! YEAAAHHHH! ;-)"












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As for me.....school will start again I am so looking forward to it. I just hope I can shuffle between school, helping Jewel with her education and taking care of little man (who by the way DEMANDS and needs nonstop attention!) all at the same time. I got my work cut out for me! That's motherhood for you ;-)

I enjoy every bit of it though. Watching these little humans learn and grow everyday is amazing and I wouldn't trade it for anything else.